I’m back!!!

I don’t know where I’ve been for the past three and a half years. To a far off land, a fuzzy head, sleepy, pain filled, body restricting place that I don’t ever wish to return to …. BUT I’m back!!!!!!!

I thought the old me was gone forever. Replaced with a tired, dried up, decrepit, pained, inflexible….fill in the blanks. I thought that was going to be my life from now on. So I feel like I’ve won the lottery.

After waking up at 4am this morning I was up and into a few more drawers before the sun came up. Both bathrooms are now sorted (isn’t it amazing what accumulates and multiplies in the bathroom drawers and cupboards?!!)

I have made a mess all over the house, which is what I do when I’m clearing things out. The theory being that I will eventually clean it all up because it will annoy me. We have guests coming for the weekend so I know it will be done by then (the contents of the linen cupboard are on the guest bed!) I need to create deadlines for myself! It’s good to know how we work. I remember my mother being horrified at the mess I had made when my kids were little and I had visitors due. Obviously not the way she worked!

I have even cleaned out the second drawer in the kitchen. I’ve no idea how long it’s been since the bottom saw the light of day. Now the drawers in the kitchen are sorted. I wonder how long before they are un-sorted 🙂

The ‘Tupperware’ drawer (which has not a skerrick of Tupperware in it) doesn’t seem to be able to stay tidy. I organise it in what I think is easy to find and co-ordinate lids with bottoms but the person I live with is only able to find things after rummaging through the drawer, moaning that he can never find lids to match so that the next time I go to the drawer (a nice deep one) I can never find anything. I should call it the ‘swear’ drawer instead of the ‘Tupperware’ one lol!!! That drawer is for later.

After the drawers were done I went down to the storeroom and threw part of my life away. Since the late 90’s I have been dispensing Australian Bush Flower Essences. I remember the first set of boxes I got. When the new ones came out I was very excited and have kept them in pristine condition. But so many of the bottles are out of date (by a few years) and when I looked from a financial perspective I realised that I wasn’t making up essences these days. In fact I can’t remember the last time I did. With ThetaHealing I don’t need to any more. there was a moment of panic when I thought about letting them go so I have sat with it for some time. But as I am in a ‘cleaning out everything that I am not currently using’ mood it was time for the essences to go. Guess what I discovered while I was purging? About 20 bottles that don’t expire until 2017! So I still have some essences.

Just to digress a little. I started my career in the healing arts at the end of the 90’s first with massage, then Reiki, Bush essences, EFT, Meditation, Bowen therapy….then moving on to holistic counselling and finally ThetaHealing. I have let them all fall away except Meditation, Bowen and ThetaHealing. I wonder where I am moving to

And the best part of my morning ….. insert drumroll!! ….. I took Rosie for a walk!!!! I knew I was ‘coming back’ yesterday and made a vow to Rosie that we would go out early for a walk.

I’ve achieved all that plus this blog and it is only 8am! Now it’s time for a shower and get ready for my first client at 10am.

I haven’t been able to walk because of the ankle that I broke 2 years ago (long story short – I had the plate and 10 screws removed a month ago and the difference in movement and pain is huge) I slipped and tore my hamstring at Easter and that has taken a long time to heal (still not 100%) The pain in my feet and legs has been a huge deterrent, my ungainly gait and the inability to walk on uneven surfaces stopped me from ‘going for a walk’. I now have exercises to do to get the balance back in my feet.

There is a book being written about my health challenges and I now feel that the fog has lifted sufficiently in my head for me to get it organised. I found an integrative GP and a wonderful naturopath who have helped me to ditch the heavy duty drugs I was taking. They ordered blood and urine tests I am now just taking blood pressure medication and heaps of supplements. There’s a bit more about it below but you’ll have to wait for the book to find out the rest!


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The importance of loving yourself

“The fundamental problem that most patients face is the inability to love themselves.” Bernie Siegel MD

I remember reading his book Love, Medicine and Miracles back at the end of the ’80’s and it resonated so deeply with me, something shifted inside.

Women of my generation have been taught to be perfectionists

We were taught that we need to be all things to all people

We were taught that to do something for ourselves,

to think of ourself was selfish … the very worst sin you could commit it seemed

Then you had people screaming that women can have it all

You could have children, be a mother AND have a high powered job

You could do anything and everything a man could do

What happened as a result of those high expectations was a generation of women who exhausted their bodies and their spirits trying to pack in all that they thought they were supposed to do

Be the 1950’s housewife with the perfect home & perfectly behaved children
and at the same time compete with men in the corporate world.

What an unsustainable, insurmountable goal that was!

In order to attempt to juggle all those balls in the air women had to sublimate their own needs to the needs of others.

When that happens our emotions have to shout louder and louder in order to get out attention

and because there is no time or space to focus on ourselves, plus we’ve been taught that to do so is wrong
thoughts and emotions get pushed further and further down
and that’s when the physical symptoms begin

[I read that martyrs experience chronic resentment – that was so me when my children were younger!]

When you look at this very simplified explanation you can see the problems this created,

both in my generation and the generations to follow.

Each generation tries to rebalance the wrongs they felt the previous generation inflicted upon them

I see the same things manifesting in my clients,
each generation having their own set of issues
and most of them say they feel stuck.

At the crux of all of it is the need
to be seen and heard, to be validated and acknowledged

and how quick the turnaround and change begins when that happens!

Focusing on yourself is not selfish,
experiencing pleasure is not selfish,
they are both crucial for vibrant health!

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Money is the Root of All Evil …

Did you hear that when you were growing up? Perhaps you heard ….. ‘Money doesn’t grow on trees’, ‘we can’t afford it’, ‘I don’t know how we’re going to pay these bills’, ‘you need money to make money’, ‘you have to work hard to earn

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Our body is always talking to us?

Sadly, most of us don’t listen.   Or we only listen when we are brought to our knees.   I admit that even though I have known this for a long time and have been teaching it for the past twenty years I don’t always

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